From time to time I think it is important to check yourself. Just because I am getting older, am I getting meaner? We have all had that crabby old lady or mean old man in the neighborhood who would keep your baseball if it landed in their yard. Do you want to become that person? I sure don’t. Growing older is hard enough with out growing mean too.
Life is hard. Sometimes it is flat unbearable. Disappointments can devastate us and sometimes we get angry. Most times we don’t deal with the anger but just stuff it inside and keep going. Little by little it takes over and we become negative, controlling and very very angry. Then you wake up one day and you are not so young any more. The list of hurts builds up and all the anger has no where to go so we take it out on friends and family. You look in the mirror and there you are ..OLD AND MEAN.
When I was younger I was guilty of poking fun at the grumpy old neighbor man. Now I find myself feeling sorry for them. I now know how much pain they must have experienced.
I now try to deal with my hurts, loss and pain in a more understanding and tender way.
I want to be loving and trusting.
Old sure isn’t what I thought it would be.